the next morning

So I woke up this morning and, same as ever, I'm tired and my brain immediately starts(/continues from sleep?) to go over life - trying to analyze and decide on things that i've left forgotten, thinking about what to eat and knowing I can't figure anything out, and just generally leaving me feeling like a sack of shit while i still can barely open my eyes. It's so much about what's wrong with me all the time...how everything's a mess and i don't know what to do.

and because of that, I go on facebook hoping some piece of connection will make me feel better but of course it's all other people's shit...nothing for me....which makes me feel even more like a loser.

lame.

This is definitely something I'd like to change. Mornings have always been so near and dear to my heart. This morning I even had a semi-plan to have a bath...but then I was afraid of relaxing too much and falling asleep...I have no food for breakfast. that really bothers me.

and I don't know what to do about plans on sunday, or for this dinner date invitation...decisions are hard for me when i'm sleepy.