Need to get some of me
hiding
why?
need my privacy, need some space. need to do my own thing
i just need to say what is actually in my head - get it out, look at it and question it perhaps
Basically, it comes down to nobody gives a shit. And, since I am the only one, I need to be alone to feel it.
nearly killed a child
found a dead raccoon in the pond
am failing at getting a new job because I have spent no time working on it. Don't know how to get time away. I think I just figured it out.
he just always does exactly what he wants and I fucking bend over backwards trying to make everyone happy
Do I actually want to do my resume tonight? no. Do I want to try to get a new job? Fuck. What the hell do I actually want? I keep thinking he doesn't care and no surprise, he does. and I'm a fuckwad
he is just so into what he is doing all the time that i can't seem to carve out five minutes to do what I want
it's driving me nuts
but that's also the reason i like him - he's passionate and into things so much
but like, waking me up everynight to mess around leaves me tired. I've gone out of my way to get the point across that i want to do my own thing right now and he's bugging me
"i won't bug you" - his response to "I just think i need to be on my own for a bit"
I feel like shit - i'm sick and there's something keeping me down
He loves me he's all over me I keep thinking "I should be happy"
but i'm not
but is it because this is not what I need right now?
michael wrote me
and i feel better already
accepted - not alone
and i don't with patty
question is why? or how can i?
so worried about having him approve of me, want me, enjoy me. how much am i asking of him?
fucking brain shit
